Friendships as coping mechanism : Borderline Personality Disorder ...

I definitely understand what you mean, and I worry a lot that I'm like an emotional leech and that it will have an eventual toll on the person I'm obsessing over at the time, but that's not usually until I've been behaving in that way for a while and I slowly realise that maybe I'm being too intense, and that realisation generally makes me worry that the person doesn't reciprocate the same level of friendship/whatever with me and then I start distancing myself, and/or splitting the person, for fear of them getting tired of me and leaving.

I go through stages of it, moving from one person to another, spending as much time as possible with them. When I'm with them I'm planning ways that I can be with them again very soon, making arrangements, etc. and I get very possessive over them and very upset if they have other plans. It doesn't have to be a constant thing, though. I often have periods of being very avoidant and not wanting to spend time with anyone. Generally if I'm spending a lot of time with someone it's either because they're new to me and I want to... consume them, in a way, and have them consume me; or it's because I'm feeling endlessly lonely and empty and I guess I'm trying to fill that emptiness, which probably has a huge emotional toll on the people whom I pass that burden onto. I never do it intentionally, though, the obsession and love I feel for the person is genuine, I flip between idealisation/devaluing so often and it's usually a rotation of existing friends anyway - I don't discard them for good when I'm 'done' with them.

Source: http://www.psychforums.com/borderline-personality/topic101692.html

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